Chest to chest Nose to nose Palm to palm We were always just that close

Hi,
My weekly musing for your delectations.
This has been a long week for me.  I'd never had a nightmare before last friday, not a proper one anyways.  Ive always kind of quaffed at people that say I cant sleep because of this nightmare or this or that, but ive experienced it now and it is a different matter.  I had it on friday night woke up about 4 am.  then again when i tried to catch a few z's on saturday afternoon after football (another 2-2btw) then again the same dream on saturday night! Anyways I havent slept at all since then.  I havent even attempted getting into my bed (which if you know me youll know is a very big deal!).  Any advice from you persistant nightmare veterans would be welcome as at the moment the tiredness is making me feel like there is a brass band inside my head all blowing at once to clear out their instruments. brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.  Its not even a particularly interesting nightmare.  Basically im dreaming that im lying in bed, half asleep, and as I roll over onto my back I can see this shadow on the ceiling.  Its like a kind of spider but not really a spider more misshapen.  Anyways it slowly lowering down on like a string of web getting closer and closer to me untill its on my chest, then its leg brushes my face and boom im awake.  The first time I had it on friday i leapt out of bed and into the corner of my room wrapping my imaginary arachnid in my duvet, it took me three or four minutes of standing there in the corner to realise i was awake, and further few minutes to build up the courage to leave the safety of the corner and attempt the light.  By this point I was wide awake and realised it was a nightmare but since the third occurance I cant even imagine going to sleep and risk putting myself through it again...even tho im shattered!

Anyways, all this awake time has given me plenty of thinking time, dangerous to be alone in my head, so Ive been avoiding the big issues and looking at a few things ive recently neglected... music, fashion and of course late night tv!
With xfactor back on the telly Id be a fool not to mention it....every year we all sit down to watch the idiots whose friends neglected to tell them theyre tone deaf and the occasional goodun sneak through into the exciting live shows and the possibilty of an actual career.  But who actually made it.  Will young obviously, but who actually buys his stuff? the high profile failures far outway the sucess stories and we can always hope that Steve Brookstein will be performing on the night we sit down in our local pizza express.  Recent years have prooved you dont need to win to be a winner.  Olly murs, jls, diana vickers, cher lloyd all performing better than Leon and Joe, both dumped by Simon Cowell after failing to fill his coffers with blood money.  And no xfactor, we still dont forgive you for Jedward, and we wont rest untill they're off the telly, preferable gigging with jamie afro in pontins somewhere.  The best thing I think xfactor has coffed up so far....Matt Cardle, Many of Horror, better than Biffys version and my favorite sad time song.

Its been many many months since I treated myself to any new clobber (also unusual for me), but, I saw the benefits of having a little disposable income left in me bank and splurged a bit.  Even after having my finger firmly off the pulse while Ive been involved with sportswear I have my own little predictions and theories as usual.  The 'preppy' look never goes away for the guys, in fact as less and less people are wearing it I think the look becomes even stronger and its a great autumnul look, Polo shirts and good tailored jeans or trous with the ever more popular espadrille or plimsole for comfort.  But as we go into winter im gonna say colours are gonna dull, chunky knits are on their way out but quality woolies will always be beyond cool.  Check these few items for the boys.  (Cardigan-river island, shirt-all saints, jeans - gstar, total price £110!)

'Industrial worker wear' is what im calling it, but always kick it up with your plimsoles, after all they are sooooooo comfortable, but i speak from experience when I tell you, if it snows leave the primani plims at home and go for something more substansial.
The beauty of this look is its roots in rockypunky goodness, something I think will be hot for the la la ladies this year. Bold colours (to counteract your mans greys brown and navys), mixed up with elegantly punky leathers, brave print tees and quality block colour accs, most of which you can pick up dead cheap now as the websites try to clear out all their summer stock! try asos obviously but djtees and 8balltees have a brilliant selection of stuff for men and women... (tshirt-new look, jacket- asos, jeans - j'adore, total price £150)

Where would we be without your weekly bit of advice from the brain of the man who knows nothing about anything?  Im a firm believer in fate and karma.  So I try to do right by people at all times, which isnt easy when things never seem to come around and 'pay you back'.  But it strikes me, why do nice things for people just so that you get a reward...eventually.  So im not going to gripe about the facts that drag me down day to day, and, obviously I will still try and do what I can to make peoples days more bearable.  After all when you smile the world smiles with you right?  Well sometimes :(.

Something we all need to get to grips with is that life changes, and we must adapt or we'll be dragged down.  Everyone harks back to the days be it university when you were surrounded by friends and all your worries amounted to what time the pub opened or to times when you could just relax with the one you love in front of the telly before things go south.  But we must grow, we must roll with the punches and leave our childhood behind to concentrate on moving ourselves in the right direction (but it goes without saying we can still enjoy puddles and mud! In fact I taught my nephews the age old joys of curby this week, remember curby).

As always I'll leave you with a little titbit.... from adele, great song, and a great ad on video, ideal for those that are really down and it really sums up the uselessness inside.

@taffrebleu

xx