Better than Cola: I'd give up forever to touch you 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

Hi.
Its monday, I hate mondays. In fact I hate most days now. Sleep is still a problem for me. I got some good sleeping pills from my doctor but in earnest theyre not helping too much. Spending so much time awake leaves loads of time for thinking and dreaming, which at the best of times isnt too much fun my head, but, when I'm exhausted, head pounding, body aching and eyes struggling to focus all it seems to achieve is the nervous realisation of life. Its a long and painful struggle with the demons within and there is no way to win, only to delay the inevitable. We'll touch on that again later tho.
After a whole 7 days of no sleep this popped up onto my ever shining television screen (in glorious hd no less, its still looks no different to me). This little bit of magical television, that gave me a small glimpse of Taff for the first time in a while. I watched it only once, but from the start the goosebumps appeared and that little thing inside me thought something special is about to happen. As the music starts I think to myself 'oh no,' its a song that only goes to remind me of certain recent events that have more or less caused me to give up on myself and any actual worth I may have once had. As the clip went on I just sat on my own, in my empty house, surrounded by the shit i've bought to try and fill the empty hole in life and as the realisation of the fact that that hole will never again be full, no matter how much I try with drinking, dancing, excersize or busying myself, the hole will still be there. Im not ashamed to say I wept like a baby, for the duration of the song and the little bit after I couldnt stop crying, and, as happy as it made me for the person in the clip the tears wouldnt stop. I thought I'd share that with you guys and of course the video....

Some things that are bringing me brief moments of respite these last few days.

Well firstly I have noticed a little trend creeping in amoung my friends and family. Blogging has been around for sometime, some are better than others, but all are relevant, everyone should have an outlet for anything they want to say, and, I'm delighted that soooo many of you are starting or restarting throwing your thoughts onto a readable type for everyone to access. I for one will read every one of everyones post be anything from your musings on football or any other 'sport' right through to your daily doings on or you thoughts on life. Keep going.

Secondly one of my favorite brands Topman, have teamed up with one of Britains leading mens fashion designers Marc Hare to add some serious muscle to and spice to their already uber cool AAA collection. Already packed with tasty, indie pieces Marc Hare (Mr Hare shoes) is throwing some heavy shoes into Topmans already much desirable coiffers. Rest assured the coolness of this brand will unfortunatly be reflected in the price range :(

Also this week im saying a fond farewell for now to the shorts and shirts look that I have much loved this summer, the weather had turned against me, and, now that im some what of a danger behind the wheel of a car I cant go walking around in shorts. Come back soon my tailored friend, and, bring mr plimsole.

Finally, I been keeping my hat on it for a little bit now but things are starting to move in the right direction and a few 'samples' are beginning to appear on my doorstep, rather un nervingly as many things are not in place, in fact most things are not in place. But hopefully, soon, you will be able to pick up the following and many more special editions prints on many lovely clothes and accessories from someone not a million miles away in a small shop that probably will be a million miles away. Let me know if you like them.